[May 8, 2001 | 08:42 a.m. | Tatsumi]
They said it and I can't believe they did. -_- When my parents talk to me they tell me they're proud of me and the course I've chosen. They also say they'd like me to do medicine because it's a good profession. They say my tertiary mark was good (95.5 out of 99.5, top 5% in the state....). But evidently what they say to my face is different from what they really think. When they think I can't hear them, my course isn't anything special. Jobs are hard to find, the entrance mark wasn't high enough. And they don't say it directly but they're not proud of my high school TER mark. I didn't get any 20s, all 18s and 19s. Good enough for me, but not anyone else they know. They talk about how other people's kids *only* got one 20 and how they must have been slacking or they don't understand how he got in a certain course without at least 3 20s... So now they've hung they're hopes on David. They want all 20s from him, but naturally say to his face that whatever he gets is fine... They also tell me Medicine is a crappy profession that no one respects anymore and he should go into engineering....medicine is a crappy profession........If it's so damned crappy, why do they want me to do it?! Maybe it's the best they think I can do now. But I can't listen to it anymore. I can't hear them say to my face how they're proud of me and my course and then hear them later saying my course isn't good and the course they're *gently* pushing me to do is also shoddy. This is my most stressful semester and I simply can't hear it. I can't know that my parents haven't been as proud of me as I had thought they were.